I think it's funny

because it is.

Levity

I am turned off and intimidated by others like me. What does this say about me?

I am on the cusp of a huge first move away from home and into the big city, and I fear that there are factors to my personality that will significantly limit my success and happiness.

Once I've quit everything that reminds me of me, what is left? I have quit everything that I had to quit, and I am now left with just me. The ball is in my court, and the next move is mine alone to make.

Who will I call? Where will I go to be peaceful? Who will I fuck? Where will I haunt? Who will haunt me?

"I want to buy you lots of pretty things and shyly offer them to you one at a time..."

"Do you ever prepare yourself for what would happen if gravity were to switch on you? And just you? I think most of us would die a lot of the time if this happened to us..." D.A.T.

Lower your heads; Raise your hands

I deeply regret running for and winning the title of Peer Helping class president my senior year in high school. I should have let Amy have the job. Not only did she need the positive feedback from her peers, she wanted it more. I know that I would have been more passionate and involved in the class dynamic if I had something to fight against instead of being the one with all of the responsibility.

So I suppose this is my life's paradigm: I desire power, yet do not function well at the top of the totem. I need to feel suppressed in order to flourish. When I feel like I have it all, I grow tired and move on to something else. How do I repair this flaw in character?



Again my thoughts return to Darwin's "survival of the fittest" theory. The 'fittest' individuals may overcome less fit ones, but how do they fare against themselves and others like them? The theory must degenerate at some point, but I've been waiting for the end since I began...

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We have avoided maturation long enough. It is time to grow the fuck up.

Where are the borders?